Grief Fog is Real - no, you're not losing your mind.
And it doesn't matter who or what you're grieving.
TLDR; brain damage from grief shows up the same way on an fMRI as a traumatic brain injury does, so grievers can have the same symptoms as people with TBIs.
Grief fog is very, very real, and it can be from any type of loss.
At one point in my grief “journey” after my husband died, I thought I was losing my mind. Then I heard other widows talk about “widow brain”, and other grievers talking about brain fog. I realized it might be a thing!
Then I started actually getting my Masters in grief, and found a study on the thing that we all experience after a traumatic loss.
According to a 2019 study, traumatic grief affects your brain the same way a brain injury does (Schneck et al.).
Some of the symptoms include:
Confusion
Anxiety
A lack of concentration
This traumatic grief can be from losing a partner, a spouse, a parent, a pet, a child, a stepchild, a grandparent, a career, a relationship, anything that is a traumatic loss. It’s not a competition, or as one of my fellow students called it the “grief Olympics”. It all sucks, and it all makes our brains go haywire.
What happens is, our brains can't handle the amount of information being thrown at it. We’re spending all of our energy (literally burning glucose and other things our brain needs to function) and time trying to avoid thinking about the grief and the loss. Because of this, our brains don't have the ability to take in what's going on.
We're confused. We are anxious. We are forgetful. All of the things that make us feel like we are in a fog.
So how do we work through this?
One, read “Onion of Grief” and know that it is a process and you are not alone.
Two, use writing, photography, or art to help rewire your brain. Whether it is writing everything that happened down, so you don’t forget any detail, or taking photos of things around you that remind you of the life you love, those actions give you a safe space for your brain to rewire after trauma. You’ll find that the fog starts to lift as your brain processes things in the background.
If you know or love someone going through grief fog, just know, it is completely normal. You’re going to have some times where you are just confused, anxious, forgetful, etc. Don't push yourself to get through that grief quickly, because, ironically, it will make that grief fog,
You are not alone in your fog. Be kind to yourself along the way.
Sources:
Paturel, A. (2020, August 10). The traumatic loss of a loved one is like experiencing a brain injury. Discover Magazine. https://www.discovermagazine.com/mind/the-traumatic-loss-of-a-loved-one-is-like-experiencing-a-brain-injury
I feel this in my situation. Until it is fully resolved, I will experience grief fog.